Journal Entry: Wed Apr 2, 2014, 11:34 PM
Instead of being able to do any art tonight for "art night" I just miss Scotty.
Why couldn't I be there to say goodbye? How many times have I asked for such a moment? We can't always choose the timing of goodbyes, but this one I could have been there. I truly could have.
And I wanted to be.
Advice to current and future pet owners, if you love your best friend, make sure you enjoy every minute, every second of their lives with you. For theirs is so much shorter, and we are burdened with the knowledge that one day they won't be at our sides. One day you'll wake up and your confidant, your bestest companion isn't there barking you down the stairs to tell you he's hungry or wants to go out and chase the birds out of his yard. Or when he greats you, even in old age, with a toy in his mouth saying 'play with me' I still love to play.
I know for much of his life I was away at college, then moved away to start my life. He was a happy creature. And he knew when he had to part our lives, just isn't easy anyway. Especially when you can't even take a day off from work to grieve. I needed that one day. And i couldn't even have that one day. So now, picking up the pieces, days and days later, I cry alone at night wishing I could've said goodbye to Scotty in person.
He and I were born on the same day. I understood him like no one else. And he was loved intensely by all of us.
Anyways. I just needed a place to say this.
Listening to: Piano Music
Reading: Blood of the Fold
Watching: The Office
Playing: Catchup on DA